Mays poem "Payback time"

Payback time

That is a good concept, someone paying back time
Because I know for sure, I, have wasted much of mine

Hours spent, outside another clothing store
Like endless days wasted, beside the Headmasters door

Waiting in cues, everywhere you seem to go
How many days bored in traffic, I don’t even want to know

Loving someone, that didn’t love you back
The hours spent walking, down the wrong bloody track

Looking for presents that about which no one cared
Writing heart filled poems that were never really shared

The hours spent writing letters that were so misunderstood
The intentions that started honestly then were misread as no good

I wish had back the enthusiasm that came along with youth
I wish didn’t have this desire, to find out what is truth

Payback time insinuates anger, myself, I keep that tightly locked inside
Hours upon hours, spent alone frustrated, a million tears I’ve cried

If I could payback all the ladies and the lovers that I’ve had
If I could have made one person happy for longer than a moment, then I would not feel so bad

If I could pay back Cupid for all the arrows he’s misfired
A dollar for each one that wounded me, I could have retired

This poem, it stops and starts, and seems not, to make much sense
But that is the surest outcome, for a life, lived atop a fence.

Jeffrey.N.Goudy Poetry inparadise Reg No. 1028534 ::17/05/08